Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Mrs. Troll and the Zyrtec Fairy

This is what a troll on a 6-day coke binge looks like:
Just for the record: This is me and NO, I have not been on a 6-day coke binge, I just have a wicked sense of humor. I had a severe allergy attack that started on Friday and has just now started to clear up. So a note to everyone: its allergy season, take your Zyrtec or you’ll end up like Mrs. Troll up there.
This is what 2 steroid shots, 1 oral antibiotic, 1 shot antibiotic, 55 dollar eye drops, 5 dollar ear drops, lots of water and rest looks like 4 days later…. I still am a ways off from looking normal again but I’m getting there.
So I apologize for my lack of communication with the outside world. I was having difficulty seeing anything. 
Ohh and it snowed... Yes, snowed in TN yesterday. It's supposed to be spring. Grr
On the plus side…. According to my latest doctor visit, my blood pressure was perfect and since my last visit at the end of February, I’ve lost 8 lbs!! If I hadn’t felt so miserable, I would have done a big happy dance for that!
And to end... Here's a picture of Nugget with her favorite Aunt/babysitter, Abby! This pic is just too cute not to share! 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

She's got the "angles."

The “Myspace” (is Myspace even relevant anymore?) angles.
We are all guilty. As a matter of fact, I took a shameless myspace angle selfie this morning in the office. I wish I could say it was just a chick thing but then I’d be a shameless, myspace angle, selfie taking liar. I’ll pause and give you an example of the selfie.. as if you don’t already know…..


The real question is why we feel the need to hold the camera up and to the right to get our “good side?” Most people know what we look like and know that this amazing picture of us is taken at a certain angle anyways… I am just as guilty as everyone else and I will probably continue taking shameless selfies but at least I’m putting it out there.
All that being said, my life style change has had a very slow start. I’ll admit it. However, I’ve cut out cokes entirely and I’m relying on water and coffee to get me through the day and I’m continuing to plan my meals out. I know that things won’t change over night (or at least I keep telling myself that--- I’m a very inpatient person so it’s eating me alive) but I also know that things won’t change unless I change.
Over the years I’ve tried many diets and diet pills… not this time… with my blood pressure being dangerously high I can’t take the diet pills like I used to so this is all me this time. No magic shakes, or pills or any “fad” that you can think of. I’m going to be honest with myself and my readers, thank you all for your support-btw. I’m going to share my triumphs and failures with you along with my frustration and humor.
Now to tie in my myspace selfie rant, which is what I was taught during my many years doing speech competitions, I promise no smoke and mirrors. No myspace selfies. Just me, doing this the old fashioned way with no pills, “shakes,” surgery or bands.  Just me. And a blog. And maybe a few shameless baby pictures of Nugget and food.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Warning Signs.

In honor of my due date and the amazing health of Nugget, I am going to post some of the warning signs that you need to look out for in Preeclampsia and HELLP Syndrome.

Preeclampsia
No Symptoms
Preeclampsia is a serious condition of pregnancy, and can be particularly dangerous because many of the signs are silent while some symptoms resemble “normal” effects of pregnancy on your body.  Many women suffering from preeclampsia don’t feel sick, and may be surprised or become frustrated when they are admitted to the hospital or prescribed bed rest since they still feel well.
High blood pressure is an important sign of preeclampsia. The disease is sometimes referred to as a silent killer because most people can’t “feel” their blood pressure going up.  As a result, patient awareness of the warning signs is one of the most important tools we have to successfully help women receive the care they need. We encourage you to familiarize yourself with signs and symptoms included here to empower yourself and/or others during pregnancy.
What you can do...
Proper prenatal care is essential so don’t miss your appointments. Weighing in, checking your blood pressure and testing your urine for protein, each important for detecting preeclampsia, should take place at every prenatal visit. Do not be afraid to question your caregiver if any of these tests are omitted.
A good prenatal diet full of vitamins, minerals and the basic food groups are important for any pregnancy, as is reducing consumption of processed foods, refined sugars and caffeine. Eliminating alcohol and any medication not prescribed by a physician is essential. Report all medications prescribed by other doctors to your prenatal care provider so that these products can be checked regarding their safe use during pregnancy. Speak with your health care professional before taking any nutritional supplement – herbal or otherwise. Although there is no evidence that these healthy behaviors and choices impact preeclampsia, they do optimize your health for the best pregnancy possible.

Hypertension (High blood pressure)   (CHECK)
High blood pressure is traditionally defined as blood pressure of 140/90 or greater, measured on two separate occasions six hours apart. This is one of the most important indicators that preeclampsia may be developing. However, during pregnancy, a rise in the diastolic (lower number) of 15 degrees or more, or a rise in the systolic (upper number) of 30 degrees or more might be cause for concern, warranting closer observation, even though it is not, by itself, a criterion for preeclampsia. This relative rise may have added significance if you have other symptoms of the disease, as well.
What you can do...
Know your blood pressure prior to pregnancy, particularly if it is normally considered low.  Ask, "What is my blood pressure?" during each visit with your health care provider.
You can buy your own blood pressure monitor at most pharmacies, and some of these stores have a monitor available for your use, though these are not always reliable. Keep a log of your blood pressure, taken at the same time each day and in the same position. For accuracy, blood pressure readings should be taken in a sitting position, with the cuff positioned on the left arm at the level of the heart. Share your log with your health care provider at each visit.
If you own your own monitor, have it calibrated with those used in the provider’s office. If you are monitoring your pressures elsewhere, notify your healthcare provider immediately should you find any significant rise.
Please note that home monitors are not always as accurate as those used in clinics or hospitals. Home readings should therefore not replace prenatal visits, nor should a "normal" reading mean you can ignore other symptoms of preeclampsia.
If you are diagnosed with preeclampsia, many health care providers will recommend bed rest, even though evidence has not shown it to make a difference in outcomes. Some believe this helps limit potential stressors that could contribute to elevated blood pressures. During late pregnancy, it may be suggested that you lie on your left side, because lying flat on your back might cause the pregnant uterus (and the weight of the baby) to restrict the vein that supplies the heart. Lying flat on your back may also make it difficult for your kidneys to excrete salt, which could lead to further swelling and also increases in your blood pressure. Health care providers do not always agree on the benefits of lying on one’s side, but there is no evidence of harm.
If you’ve had preeclampsia previously, or if you have chronic high blood pressure, it may be preferable to be cared for by a specialist in high-risk OB, such as a maternal-fetal medicine (MFM) specialist, or when such care is not readily available, to choose a physician who readily consults with such experts or with internists specializing in hypertension during pregnancy. A resource that can help you locate an MFM near you who focuses on care of hypertensive diseases in pregnancy is the Physician Locator tool on the Society for Maternal Fetal Medicine’s website. All these situations are highly variable and are best discussed first with your primary caregiver.

Proteinuria (Protein in your urine)    (CHECK—well after 2 24 hour urines)
Proteinuria, another sign of preeclampsia, is the result of proteins, normally confined to the blood by the filtering role of your kidney, spilling into your urine. This is because preeclampsia temporarily damages this “filter.” A simple dipstick test of your urine at each prenatal check-up can screen for proteinuria, though more sophisticated equipment that can be set up in clinics and medical offices may be used in the future.
What you can do...
During each prenatal visit, ask your health care provider for the results of your urine test. A nurse will have dipped a reagent strip into a sample of your urine. A reading of trace protein is relatively common and is usually not a cause for concern. However, if the reading is 1+ or greater, it may signify the onset of preeclampsia, even if your blood pressure is below 140/90.  If you are concerned, or have had preeclampsia before, you can buy reagent strips at some pharmacies or online. Should you record a reading of 2+ or greater at home, call your health care provider that very same day.
Sometimes health care providers will have you collect your urine for 24-hours to determine the exact quantity of protein in the urine. While this is not a particularly convenient task, be sure to follow your provider’s directions and make every effort to be accurate.
Dark yellow urine is usually the result of low fluid intake and may be associated with dehydration. However, urine that looks dark, reddish or the color of cola may indicate a problem. If you observe this, contact your health care provider.


Edema (Swelling)   (BIG CHECK)
A certain amount of swelling is normal during pregnancy. For example, your feet may swell making it difficult to wear your regular shoes throughout pregnancy. Edema is the accumulation of excess fluid, and is more of concern when it is observed in the face, around the eyes, or hands.
What you can do...
If you feel your face is getting excessively puffy, find a picture of yourself from just before pregnancy to share with your health care provider. If the swelling in your extremities becomes severe, you may notice “pitting edema” (when you press your thumb into your skin, an indentation remains for a few seconds) or discoloration of your legs. If you suspect pitting edema, notify your health care provider, put your feet up every day (but avoid sitting for extended periods).


Headaches  (CHECK)
Dull or severe, throbbing headaches, often described as migraine-like that just won't go away are cause for concern.
What you can do...
If you have tried taking over-the-counter medication without relief, if the headache is very painful, you have light sensitivity, or if your headache is accompanied by vision changes (please read the section below on "Changes in Vision") call your provider immediately and ask to see him/her that day

Nausea or Vomiting    (Didn’t realize this was a CHECK until much later.)
Nausea or vomiting is particularly significant when the onset is sudden and after mid-pregnancy. “Morning sickness” should disappear after the first trimester and the sudden appearance of nausea and vomiting after mid pregnancy may be linked to preeclampsia.
What you can do...
Call your care provider. Nausea or vomiting can be confused with the flu or gallbladder problems, so insist on getting your blood pressure checked and checking your urine for proteinuria.

Abdominal (stomach area) and/or Shoulder Pain  (This was the biggest warning sign I had toward the end of my pregnancy)
This type of abdominal pain, often called epigastric pain or upper right quadrant (URQ) pain, is usually under the ribs on the right side. It can be confused with heartburn, gallbladder problems, flu, indigestion or pain from the baby kicking. Shoulder pain is often called “referred pain” because it radiates from the liver under the right ribs. Lower back pain is different from muscle strain common to pregnancy, because it is usually more acute and specific. Shoulder pain can feel like someone is deeply pinching you along the bra strap or on your neck, or it can be painful to lie on your right side. All of these pain symptoms may be a sign of HELLP Syndrome or a related problem in the liver.
What you can do...
Pain in this area should be taken very seriously; do not dismiss it and go to bed. Call your health professional immediately.

Lower Back Pain   (CHECK)
Lower back pain is a very common complaint of pregnancy. However, sometimes it may indicate a problem with the liver, especially if it accompanies other symptoms of preeclampsia.
What you can do...
Read also Stomach and Right Shoulder Pain (above) and mention this symptom to your health care provider. If this pain accompanies one or more of the other symptoms, you should call your health care provider immediately.

Sudden Weight Gain (Amazingly enough, I didn’t gain a pound while pregnant)
Weight gain of more than 2 pounds in a week may be an indicator of preeclampsia. Damaged blood vessels allow more water to leak into and stay in your body's tissue and not to pass through the kidneys to be excreted.
What you can do...
Do not try to lose weight during pregnancy by restricting your diet. Eating a healthy, balanced diet, including fresh raw fruit and vegetables, your prenatal vitamin, and a folic acid supplement is important for all pregnancies. Avoid excessive salt. Prior to getting pregnant, achieve a healthy weight (a BMI of 30 or less) since obesity has been shown to increase the chances of getting preeclampsia.
Given that preeclampsia is a complex disease, women will develop it for different reasons. A healthy, balanced diet and optimal weight may make a significant difference for some women. However, we urge caution when considering diets designed for weight-loss or claiming to prevent preeclampsia that encourage large amounts of protein. Excessive dietary protein may cause problems in women with underlying kidney disease.
Be sure to drink sufficient amounts of fluid, usually dictated by your normal thirst sensations, and to perform moderate amounts of exercise regularly. During your prenatal visits do not attempt to disguise weight gain by skipping breakfast, using diet pills or fasting for the day. An accurate weight is vital for a proper diagnosis.
The Preeclampsia Foundation recognizes the importance of a good diet, however we do not recommend any particular diet or juice product.

Changes in Vision  (NOPE)
Vision changes are amongst the most serious symptoms of preeclampsia, usually requiring immediate evaluation by a certified health care provider. Changes in vision may be associated with central nervous system irritation, or an indication of cerebral edema (general swelling of the brain). Vision changes include temporary loss of vision, sensations of flashing lights, auras, light sensitivity, and blurry vision or spots.
What you can do...
If you experience any of these changes in vision, you should contact your care provider immediately or go directly to the hospital. We stress that these symptoms are potentially very serious and they should not be left unattended to until the next morning, or particularly not until the end of the weekend. With preeclampsia, it is better to err on the side of caution, than to take a chance that might become life-threatening to you or your baby.

Hyperreflexia       (CHECK--- this played a major role later when deciding whether to deliver me or not)
Hyperreflexia is when your reflexes are so strong that when your knee is tapped by a rubber “hammer”, your leg bounces back hard. This sign is generally measured by a health care provider and otherwise difficult for you to observe yourself.

Racing pulse, mental confusion, heightened sense of anxiety, shortness of breath, sense of impending doom    (I was in the hospital for 10 days…. OF course I was sensing impending doom)
If these symptoms are new to you, they could indicate an elevated blood pressure, or more rarely, fluid collecting in your lungs (pulmonary edema).
What you can do...
Contact your health care provider if these symptoms are new. If these conditions are not new for you, be sure to mention them to your care provider during your next visit so he/she can monitor them throughout your pregnancy.
When we urge women to trust themselves, we are referring to the intuitive feeling that preeclamptic women often have that “something is not right.”  While these feelings may be nothing, it is important for women to report any concerns and for care providers to be diligent, particularly if accompanied by other signs or symptoms.
The most important thing to remember is to never be afraid to call and discuss anything unusual with your caregiver. No matter how busy, he or she does not mind (or should not) being bothered for what at first may seem unimportant. The worst outcomes of preeclampsia are best avoided by early recognition.


HELLP Syndrome
  • H -- hemolysis (the breakdown of red blood cells)   (CHECK)
  • EL -- elevated liver enzymes   (CHECK)
  • LP -- low platelet count   (CHECK)


To make a long story short, these conditions are nothing to mess around with. I almost died, Nugget and I are very lucky to be alive. I want to educate you all in the seriousness of these; I wouldn’t wish what I went through on my worst enemy. Please, if you’re pregnant or are trying to get pregnant, check out these--- not to scare yourself but to educate yourself and know the warning signs. If I had known then what I know now, I don’t know if things would have turned out differently but I would have been better equipped to handle it. Perhaps one day I will go into detail about everything that happened but for right now, I just want everyone who reads or will read my blog to take a moment and educate yourself in these conditions.
Sources: The Preeclampsia Foundation

Today is my due date.

Today was supposed to be the day that I had my sweet McKenna, but obviously God had other plans for us. Today is a bitter sweet day for me; the journey to McKenna’s birth was very traumatic. Her birth was not easy nor was it expected at the time. After I was diagnosed with preeclampsia and HELLP syndrome along with my chronic hypertension, it was a quick decision to take McKenna so we both could get out of danger. I never imaged that something like this could happen to me. I always imaged that when I got pregnant, it would be smooth sailing. I was wrong. I wasn’t able to see my sweet girl until 2 days after she was born, after everyone else had seen her so now I’m a little selfish with her. We still aren’t taking her out anywhere with a large crowd, she’s done so well and I’m not about to take her out too soon and have her catch something. It’s just not happening right now. My poor baby has been through enough and if I can prevent her from going back to the hospital, I will. 
This was the first picture of McKenna I was able to take. 


Our first family picture on my birthday. 



The day my sweet girl got to come home. 
Last night, sitting on the couch with momma watching the Walking Dead. 
There are so many days that I am in such awe of my little girl with her strength and beauty, she’s my miracle. I can’t help but wonder if she is going to be like me, will she embrace my nerdiness? Will she like Star Wars, Marvel and DC? Will she know the difference between Star Wars episodes 4-6 and 1-3? (The answer is that 1-3 suck.) Will she be a “fangirl?” Will she seek advice on boys, makeup and life? And when she does, what kind of answers will I give her? At 12 will she approach me and ask for her first bottle of hair bleach? Will she drink coffee and live for a brand new book? I have so many wonders about my baby but no matter what, I will love and support her--- even if she chooses cheerleading…. I may cry a little inside but I’ll be there and be one of those crazy moms that cheers for the cheerleaders. *Sigh*

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Have you met Ted??

I love How I Met Your Mother. Period. I’ve participated in many HIMYM marathons that followed brunch. It’s quoted many times during my day, I compare certain friends to certain characters, I attempt to place slap bets, and Barney and Robin’s romance has made my heart melt. With all that being said, I never cared about meeting the mother. Ever.
The fan theories surrounding the finale of How I Met Your Mother are killing me… I won’t spoil it for anyone by explaining these theories (google them… they aren’t happy) but March 31st couldn’t get here fast enough.
HIMYM has filled the void that Friends left in my life and at the end of the day; the show is more about those relationships and situations leading up to the point in which you settle down, the most important part of a destination is the journey and the mother is only the destination. (You can disagree with me all you want, it’s just my opinion)
Now that my frustration with a TV show is out there, I can happily say that my hair is now a normal color… it’s not the color of a banana or rust. It’s normal. Finally.  A woman’s hair is a very touchy subject. If it gets messed up, she’s a mess and I was a hot mess.

I got to spend my evening with my little nugget which was long overdue. Being a working mom is hard work, especially when you have to take care of other things before you get home to your baby. The bills won’t pay themselves and the fridge won’t magically fill up with food… I sure wish it did. For the past month that she has been home, McKenna has only been out a couple of times as her immune system was a source of concern since she was so early. My poor baby got her shots the other day so we are getting closer and closer to being able to finally take our girl out and show her the world. I’m hoping that McKenna can have her first Easter outside of our home with her cousin, Levi. It’s so nice having another baby for McKenna to grow up with that is close to her age.
On a lighter note to leave on… I’ve been trying out different healthy desserts because my sweet tooth is one of my main down falls but I think I’ve finally found a quick dessert that is actually pretty healthy.

I mixed 1 oz container of lite Cool Whip and ½ a small box of strawberry jello and let it freeze for 30 minutes. It was interesting but good.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Bleach Blonde Bad.

First off I want to share some AMAZING news: My little nugget now weighs 6lbs and 3 ounces!!! I’m so excited, that news alone could almost off set the terrible week I had last week…almost but more about that later.
McKenna is progressing beautifully, it amazes me every day. God is doing such great things in our lives. March 4th marked 2 months with our little nugget and it’s been the hardest and yet most rewarding and amazing 2 months of my life.  
Now let’s talk about my horrible, no good, very bad week….Actually, let me just show you:
I dipped my hand in bleach and I can safely say that all my finger tips are burned off. Literally. Along with my hair. Let me just say that I’ve always dabbled in doing my own hair between salon visits and it usually doesn’t turn out this awful. I have a problem with keeping one hair color; I’ve always been this way. My glamor technician understands.
Along with my bleach accident, the following things happened (in no particular order):
We had a death in the family.
My left eye swelled shut from a freak allergy/mascara accident.
I got pulled over for a brake light being out… BAH. There were cars SPEEDING around me and I get pulled over for a friggen brake light. Double BAH.
Ohhh and again, I look like a brassy banana. --- I wish work gave time off for hair emergencies.
I seriously need a re-do for the past 9 days. If only. I need a daiquiri. Sigh. But, I’ll stick with diapers.